Honing my fathering skills... or lack thereof

There has been a 1 y/o terror in my house for the past few days...

and i rose to the occasion.

like a good 'uncle' i babysat him. chased him around the backyard. We kicked a soccer ball around. we played with an RC car... and i showed him non-kids movies.

i tossed him around... did the old airplane thing. chased him around some more. The lil tyke wore me out.

so maybe... just maybe.. there might be some hope for me after all.

Also... Bonus points if you can call this non-kids movie i showed to the tyke (more like had playing in the background while he ran around)

You know what the first rule of flying is?

Love

you could learn all the math in the 'verse but you take a boat in the air that you dont love, she'll shake you off just as sure as the turn of the worlds. Love keeps her in the air when she ought to fall down. Tells ya shes hurting before she keels. Makes her a home.

apparently utility knives are weapons

So 4 stitches later and some blood loss.... i learned a valuable lesson why box cutters are not supposed to be on planes.

i fucked up my shoulder.... again

Crew pushups are normally a good excersize. Except when the person in front of you has about 100lbs on you and dosent understand when the leader says up, you push up. It was fun... untill my shoulder tore and my arm poped out of socket. Great fun smashing to the ground and knocking the whole column down. Then even more fun to try and get them to pop it back in.

So yeah... im not allowed to do any pull ups, push ups or any real upper body excersizes except sun gods for a week.

Great fun let me tell you.

British MEP and a Rant about Obama

By now i think everyone has seen this video. And if you havent, its the kind of dressing down Obama and Congress need. Its the kind of dressing down Mr. Brown needs and i sincerely hope that Mr. Hannan makes a speech at the upcoming G20 Summit. If not... im afraid all we will get out of there is borrow and spend more.... even though we are getting to the point where these numbers are so big and so rediclious they only exist on computers.



Something else that i found incredibly interesting is this image from the Heratige Foundation



To me George Bush's "compasonate Conservatism" was a stupid idea from the start. Instead of being a 'tax and spend' liberal he was a 'borrow and spend' liberal. the only conservative thing about him was social conservatism. But i think we have reached a VERY scary line. The 2009 budget was just signed by President Obama in the way of the Omnibus spending bill, the second half of the TARP bailout funds and the 'stimulus'. FY09 Started in november, during the transition where obama was a big part of the budget negoiations, hence why congress passed a stopgap to keep funding for everywhere at 08 levels untill the new congress was seated. Thats why the 09 budget is purely obamas budget. George Bush is in Crawford Tx. Obama wanted the job, and if he does not want to work on the problems and keep blameing the past president, i dont think hes matured to the point where he should be a president.

His answer to the townhall question about the Defict should have been:
"the problems we face today are not small ones. We have a financial crisis of epic proportions, we have American families unable to see a doctor becuase of cost cutting at major buisnesses. We have students unable to repay the loans to get the education for jobs that are no longer there. Thats why our budget has such massive deficits, we cannot easily raise taxes but we cannot do nothing while those people suffer"

as much as i disagree with that statement, its better than "but Bush did it".

So much for hope and change.

It makes Sense

So yesterday im moving my boxes around during the daily fedex pickup, and i make the offhand comment to the driver that i really dont care too much on if the shelves fall over, they just need to stay up for 6 more months. Conversation follows:

Driver: Where you going in 6 months

Me: I leave for the Marine Corps

Driver: No shit, you know i used to be in the army?

Me: No i didnt, that makes sense though.

Driver: What makes sense.

Me: That we get along, you were in the army and you got your head on mostly straight, thats why your nice to us, politite to my coworkers and do your job well

Driver: I never thought of it that way

Me: If college has taught me one thing, many of the people with degrees these days are fucking retarded. Everyone i know who is in or has been in the military is an awsome person, most people outside that realm are kinda douchebags.

Driver: well... cant argue with good logic. Only 27 today?

Mel: Hey, i normally only have 5 boxes for ya, need help gettin em to the truck?

Driver: Nahh, im good. See ya tomorrow.

Ive never really looked deep to find that out, it just kinda happened. The people i choose to hang out with are either going into, have been or are currently in the US Military. I guess theres a certian quality of person that does that that i like.

Or im in miami and those are the only people who dont wave the 'im from cuba' or 'im from hati' flags

57 States

Hey Guys,

Remember when President Obama was campaining and he said he had been to 57 states? It was a simple mistake and if i was running around the country as much as him, i prolly would have said it too.

But heres something funny. We actaully have gained 7 states since he has become president.

You may not have heard, so ive listed them below:

State of Depression,
State of Acrimony,
State of Misery,
State of Neurosis,
State of Anxiety,
State of Petulance, and
State of Envy

So there you go. Ammend the flag, we have 57 states now.

Dear President Obama

Dear President Obama,

I understand that under the weight of your massive bailout and other big spending projects you gotta come up with a way to help close the budget deficit. I know its alot of work to try and save the economy, especially while the treasury department has only 1 cabnet level appointee. But those are just facts, and as Ronald Regan once said, facts are silly little things.

So lets talk moral obligations. You are the Commander in Cheif of the United States Military. That means every order, every simple piece of the military comes back to you. You are the leader and are therfore responsible for the actions of those below you (namely the entire military). Therefore if someone is injured in the line of duty, it is because you sent them there (yes i know that there are outside forces and chain of command decisions that change that, but at the root that is the job of the presidency). Therefore you have a moral obligation to take care of those men. That is why the VA exists.

Now lets look at it another way. The United States Military has roughly 3 million employees. This plan is to take away workmans compensation from the us military. In almost every state, that is illegal.

As i said before, the challenge of closing the budget deficit is a big one. However, the United States Military is not the place to start cutting corners (maybe on appropirations, but not medical care).

Please consider this a warning.

Kindest Regards
Poolie Skippy

Update 1:

I forgot to link the news story. here it is

Insomnia Part 2

The thought that is keeping me up at night. Its a thought that scares me. It chills me to the bone.

What if i have to enforce a police state in the United States.

Im forced to ask myself, what if i was the National Guard soldiers at Kent State? Would i fire too? And what if i agree with the people who are protesting?

What would i do if im faced with that dilemma? What would my soul do.

Before Jan 20th those thoughts never even occured to me. Now as we march down the path to socialism, i am forced to ask myself these questions that i dont want to answer.

The last time the United States Military was engaged in Major combat operations on US Soil was the Civil War. What has changed since then? Over 150 years have passed, and i would like to think we are a stronger nation now. However, i dont see us staying strong together for long.

I feel a dangerous change in the wind. a frightening sense that maybe this administration is going to kill this country. I know, i sound insane saying it, but i really have no clue what to think anymore.

so i sit staring at the celing staring at the celing while my brain runs at 10,000 MPH to nowehere. Weeks of all night brainstorming and im no closer to an answer than i was. I am frighened, a fear i have never felt before. A cold chilling fear. But like all fear, it exists to be conquered. Hell if Captian Janeway could figure it out, i certianly can. I mean shit, she was dumb enough to not use a fuse when blowing up the caretakers array, which we know she could do cuz she did it with a borg cube later in the series.

For all non-nerds, i appologize. Insomnia is turning into ADD.

the save and publish buttons are too close

hence why updates only come when im smart enough to go into the edit posts window and see i have a bunch of drafts.

Yes im retarded. Thanks for realizing.

Aloneness: Part Duex

I said earlier that i got a profound sense of Aloneness (thank you Joss Whedon for that one).

I feel like i need to delve a little deeper into it to really get to the crux of the problem.

Its not that i am lonely, i got people around me alot and i love it. I like hanging out with my friends, i like goin fishin and i like the beach. I dont mind the nightclubs and the ringing in my ears. So what is all this about?

Im not sure. Its not that i cant talk to these people, i can and do. Its not that i cant open up to them, there are a select few i do. Its more of a sense that they dont care. And even more of a sense that i dont care.

I like my solitude when i have it. I enjoy sitting and reading alone. I savor these things because i wont have them soon. I dont know if this is part of a defense mechanisim ive built into myself to stop myself from getting attached to people when i know im leaving, or if its a honest sense that since im not going to have privacy or alone time, i might as well get as much as i can now.

Most of all, i think im just scared shitless and refuse to cognitavely admit it. I am scared to death of what im about to do, scared to death ill be forced to compromise my morals to stay alive. but at the end of the day, id rather have those experiences as much as they may hurt, confuse and annoy me...

than continue in this boring office dweller life.

So i will continue to stand in a crowded room and scream while no one notices. I will savor the empty ring of my echo off the walls while no one turns... because soon, i wont have that anymore. And once that is gone... its gone forever. As my seargeant says: Savor the pain, it means you actaully did something you didnt think you could.

a prayer for my country

Dear God,

For the first time in my life, im scared about the future of this country. For the first time, i truly feel like we are going down the wrong path, that we are going to teach future generations they dont need to work hard because the government will bail them out.

For the first time im not sure if my decisions for my future are right. I fear instead of being on a foreign battlefield i will be in the battlefields of fullerton, omaha and oklohoma city. Instead of protecting America from those that would do us harm i would be fighting against people who want thier freedom back.

Please lord, give me clarity to sort through all this. Please give my leaders the clarity to do your will. Most of all, please dont make this decision be one that i have to compromise my morals in order to complete.

Amen